Things Getting Better.. [14 Jul 2004|08:30pm] Well.. To be honest, things have been getting a little bit better over the last few weeks. Me and Kristin just got over something big.. Which I am very happy about :D. I love you baby. I've been hanging out with mike a lot. Which is pretty cool. I'm mad at myself for not hanging out with him more in the last year, which is completely because I am a jealous asshole. But at least I have friends now.. I am so awesome. Other than that.. Nothing. I need a job. Football has been okay.. I have been working out a lot lately.. Hopefully I'll be bigger by the time the season starts.. That'd be awesome. I also decided I am going to start running a lot.. I will probably update more later.. Some parties this weekend.. Graduation, so that should be fun. Later. Have Hit Me: 2 thoughts - Take A Punch..

Yeah.. Right.. Friends. [26 Jun 2004|03:24pm] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | Beastie Boys ] Well, I sure as fucking hell haven't written in this in a long time.. So I probably am going to start again soon.. I dunno, more time on my hands.. A fucking way to vent since most other people suck total ass. Well, I kinda realized I really don't have any friends in Chester.. Which sucks. I mean like actual FRIENDS.. And yeah, it pisses me off. I fucking tell people I want to hang out with them like a week in advance, and somehow I managed to get ditched. I seriously fucking hate it.. And before Kristin gets upset, I am excluding my girlfriend from this rant deal.. Just everyone, I fucking make an extreme effort to hang out with people, but everyone else has their little group of friends, so why bother hanging out with me. Fuck it. I give up. I seriously decided all summer I'll just do shit on my own.. Everyone else can go fuck themselves.. Eh.. Forget it.. Later. Have Hit Me: 5 thoughts - Take A Punch..

I'm Back Bitch.. [09 Jun 2004|09:32pm] Aright bitches.. I just wanna make a quick announcement that I will start writing again.. Prolly later tonight. Peace. Have Hit Me: Take A Punch..

Holy Hell. [22 Feb 2004|11:22pm] [ mood | aggravated ] Did it just hit me that I have the most fucking boring life ever? I've been sitting here.. Watching the same fucking movie 5 times in a row.. How lame can I be? I go to school.. Talk to Kristin.. Weight Lift.. And play on the computer. What else? Nothing. I basically never go out.. Twice a week, MAYBE. And if that, it's only a few hours.. TOPS. I lost most of my friends.. And I don't even know why. Kristin is upset with me.. I don't really wanna go into why. I'd say I wanna change myself.. But everytime I change, I want to change AGAIN. And I really don't know what. Well I do.. I just don't think I will. I won't. I'm still working, so I can get my webcomic up. I dunno.. It just seems important to me to get it done.. heh. I'll have fun with it I am hoping.. I dunno. I keep forgetting I have to pay the fucking guys over at ECA Studios $150.00. They'll get it once the site is done.. Which is taking about 3 weeks longer than I thought it would. .i.-_-.i. Well.. Later. Have Hit Me: 1 thought - Take A Punch..

Again.. I say ROAR [22 Feb 2004|02:32am] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | Asia -- Heat of the Moment ] Well.. I haven't written in this thing in fucking forever.. And I just felt the need to write.. So I went and bought a paid membership.. And here I am. I haven't been to school in like a week because I am fucking suspended. Threw that douche Tyler into a locker, and got three days suspension. And then.. The kid has the nerve to go around telling people he almost kicked my ass, when he wouldn't even hit back. The only reason I didn't beat the shit outta him was because Kristin was there. Like I said .. Oh fucking well. Tonight was Valentine's Day.. I had a good time with Kristin. She was sick, so it was kinda bad.. I really love that girl to death.. Can't really explain that.. So happy to be with her.. I decided no more sex! Dunno.. Just decided.. For a while.. None. Need time to just clear shit out, and that just gets in my way.. Hahah.. Right now I am watching </b>Boys and Girls</b>.. I have to say.. It just doesn't compare to </b>100 Girls</b>. Now that was an awesome movie.. I've been weird lately.. Working to get a lotta money, but I end up not spending it on like anything.. Except shit for Kristin, and occassionally hanging out with people.. Well, I am tired so I am going to finish this movie and go to sleep.. Later. Have Hit Me: Take A Punch..

Wow.. [22 Feb 2004|01:50am] Well, I haven't written in this thing for about.. Yeah a really long time.. I am not going to even bother updating about what has been going on the past few months... I'll just start it fresh.. I'll make my first real post a little later.. :) Have Hit Me: Take A Punch..

Alright.. [11 Dec 2003|08:47pm] Well, I haven't written in a LONG LONG time.. Basically.. Me and Kristin are going out. That's all I think is important enough to mention here right now.. I love her. I do. She loves me.. It is the absolute best thing to know in the world.. I mean.. Today I just.. I dunno. She doesn't beleive that I love her anymore.. And I can honestly say.. I do. No doubt. I don't need to think about it.. I just do. Not one person has ever made me remotely as happy as she has.. I know a lot of people don't like the idea of us.. But I really don't care. I love her.. She loves me.. It's just.. I am so use to having her.. That I -can't- be without her anymore.. It's not an option. She's never allowed to be with me.. =/ .. I hate it more than anything.. And I am going to get through it. I was reading some old journal entries.. And realized besides stuff with Kristin, I use to be a much happier person. I didn't think it then.. But I was. And that is who I want to be again.. So I honestly am going to try to just.. Change stuff. Not me, but things. I'll be back later on.. Have Hit Me: 2 thoughts - Take A Punch..

Back to the.. [20 Oct 2003|06:01pm] Whoahhh... Long time since last update, eh? Shit load has been going on.. I dunno if I will remember everything. Me and Kristin have been having troubles. But.. I am really trying to work through them.. I really want us to last.. She means like.. Everything to me.. Really is my best friends. =/ I just want shit to work. Football blows. I'm good, but our team is horrible. We won one game, which I was suspended for.. Against a JOKE team. Uhmm.. Nexus.. No need to talk about that? It's a fucking game.. My website! It has changed. http://www.TehGrowl.com/ Eh, the band site is: http://www.DaysLasting.com/ :) Hmm... That's about it for now. Have Hit Me: Take A Punch..

[09 Oct 2003|05:34pm] Hey.. Haven't written in a LONG while .. But I will soon. Prolly tomorrow night. Here is a quiz I just took.. My life is rated NC-17. What is your life rated? Have Hit Me: Take A Punch..

Quiz [15 Sep 2003|06:57pm] Roar .. I did some NexusTK Quiz .. Pretty lame but .. oh well? I'll add more to this post later .. I had a shitty day. You're Il san.... WTG! Its all downhill from here =P What type of NTK char are you? 0.0 brought to you by Quizilla Have Hit Me: 1 thought - Take A Punch..

Bad .. Good .. Day? [10 Sep 2003|03:35pm] [ mood | Roar! ] Mneh, today was alright. A little bad .. Little good. I felt sick all day though .. And had like one fucking thing on my mind all day .. Which really has been since like .. 4 months? hahah. Yes, it indeed sucks cock. I really want my fucking digital camera. I have fun with cameras. Its just something I like always liked to do .. Take pictures .. Yeah everyyone who knew me llike 3 years ago knows a hilarious story about me .. Rob harding .. And a camera. lol.. Good times .. Good times indeed.. I keep thinking about it .. And realize school isn't going to get any better .. It'll get worse. I mean -bad-. fuck.. I don't want to go tomorrow. I have nothing to enjoy there anymore. Last year I actually like .. Loved school. Now all I do is get like depressed about shit .. Then at home it is even worse cuz my fucking rents .. horrible. I can't deal with that shit at all. Mneh .. I guess I will write more later? I need to do some shit .. Plus I am in a really bad mood. Yours Truly, `TheWaxTadpole Have Hit Me: Take A Punch..

Damnit. [09 Sep 2003|04:09pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | Short Skirt Long Jacket ] hahah.. I am soo bored .. I wanted to hang out with people today .. So I asked Kristin if she was staying after school .. She said no .. I go home. Its an hour and a half since school ends .. And she is still there? COOL! Mneh, its all good. I have football anyway .. in 3 hours. hahah Roar. I am really in a shitty mood. Been thinking too much lately .. Nervous about shit .. It sucks. I have a feeling this is going to be a bad week. And I want to hang out with someone this weekend .. So lemme know if you wanna do something. School really is so horrible. I can't stand it. And its even worse home .. I like hate the computer lately .. I hate Nexus lately .. Just everything is wrong this year... Erghh.. I am not in the mood to write .. My hand really hurts. I'll finish it up then. Yours Truly, `TheWaxTadpole Have Hit Me: Take A Punch..

Change! [08 Sep 2003|08:31pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | Feva For The Flava ] Hahah yeah.. I finally decided to stop being a cheap bastard and pay the $2.50 a month for Live Journal. Worthe it .. Cuz I fucking love the new layout. Better than my old shittay thing. :) Made me happy .. So fuck you. Roar .. Been working on my site all night. Shit should be great by the end of the week.. So I am happy about that. Hmm.. I haven't faught with Kristin in a few days really .. Which is awesome. Only .. I am so fucked up from football .. It is killing me to type this fucking thing now. -.- My thumb is like .. Ouch. A huge gash on it. My parents are making me go to therapy like I said before ..AWESOME! I really don't want to. A waste of my fucking time .. Roar! I am -not- talking at all. I am depressed anyway .. Put me on prozac and shut the fuck up about it? Doctors are such morons .. Ugh well .. I guess I will write more tomorrow .. :--P " I r teh Wax Tadpole " Have Hit Me: Take A Punch..

Do I hear a ... [08 Sep 2003|04:41pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | Stacey's Mom ] Holler? Haven't had much time to write in my LJ lately .. Been busy with school .. And Kristin .. And football . Yah know. School is really horrible. My schedule is bad .. Lunch = Sucks. I -never- see Kristin .. And if I do its for like .. 10 seconds. I talk to her a minute tops all day? I hate it. Most my teachers are beasts. Weird .. Football like .. Sucks.. Our team is bad .. Gay coahes .. Just bad. I got really hurt though at our game .. Which we lost! FUCK! My hand is like .. My thumb is torn apart .. A huge gash .. I still played. Racked up like 95% of tackles .. lol... My parents are horrible lately .. Like abuse, screaming .. I have to go to therapy again. I -hate- it. I am not talking at all. This time I am really not. I talk to Kristin about shit, and that is basically it. I am only telling the shrink my rents hit me. And thats it. Nexus = Gay lately. No time for it .. And it just bores me. =/ ..Not cool. I am working on my site a lot. www.SylkAnatomy.com -- It is up so check it out. :) heh .. well .. I dont have much to say .. Later. Yours Truly, `TheWaxTadpole` Have Hit Me: Take A Punch..

Roar! [07 Sep 2003|07:18pm] Yes everyone .. I am alive. :) School has just been ermm .. Killing me? So I will write up like .. A million things. So ha. But later. :) Yours Truly, `TheWaxTadpole` Have Hit Me: Take A Punch..

School.. =/ [03 Sep 2003|03:42pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | Silence. ] Yeah, today was the first day of school. Some good some bad. My schedule. Me, Anthony, and Wayne basically have the exact same schedule .. So that is cool. It sucks. I am mad worried. I didn't see Kristin really at all. I didn't speak to her -once-. And now I am gonna be worried she'll just get into other guys, and she'll forget about me cuz we will never talk. No more phone. =/. Ugh, that would be the absolute worst possible. She prolly would be the only thing letting me last through the year. At least, she was last year. Then in my last period study hall there is .. Rebecca, Anthony, Matt, and Charlie. So that should be fun. Everything else basically sucks. I couldn't sleep last night. I was up till like 4 .. Got up at 6:30. FUCK. I can't do that again .. I fucking fell asleep in tech today. .i. -_- .i. Roar .. Nothing else. I am hoping Kristin comes back soon.. I really wanna talk to her. Yours Truly, `TheWaxTadpole` Have Hit Me: Take A Punch..

FUCK. [26 Aug 2003|10:24am] I fucking hate my parents .. Everything is horrible .. It really is. Everyone always thinks I just exxagerate everything .. When I really don't. Attention my ass .. I really want to fucking die more than anything .. No one beleives that I would go thrrough with it .. And I dunno if I would .. It doesn't change the fact that I want to be dead. And I -really- do just want to be dead. I have like two fucking real friends. Steve and Kristin. Steve who is too fucking busy and cool to hang out with me anymore, and I bet by the end fo the year we won't be rfiends anymore.. And once Kristin finds a guy better than me I know it'll be over between us too. And that is the point where I really just kill myself. My parents -do- hate me.. How do I know? Well besides my dad hitting me, or trying so hard not to hit me where he has to leave the house .. And my mom telling me how I ruin everyone's life I know .. And know what? Its true. Here is everything they took away from me .. Computer Phone Stereo Well .. Basically any means of communication I have with anyone .. Meaning .. No talking to Kristin, not talking to -anyone- since I don't have the phone, or AIM, no nexus, or anything on the computer cuz I don't have a fucking computer. I don't fucking have anything. I can't leave the house, cuz there is nowhere to go. I mean I can't deny it .. I have basically been the most miserable person the last two years. I don't remember the last time where something really happened to make me happy .. I mean sure, when I thought LIES WERE TRUE I was a little happy . Or actually very happy. But they were lies, right? I mean, my parents caring about me? That is a lie. They do hate me. They want me to move out .. But won't let me so they don't feel guilty the rest of their lives. I don't blame em. Who would give a shit about me? Like samantha told me .. I am an immature peice of shit who doesnt deserve antyhing. Its not like I ignored it when she said it .. I know its true. 8 days until school right? next time I wil prolly see anyone. if i fucking shoot myself by then. oh man, i cant talk anymore. just know i wont be around a while .. and i dunno if you shoudl even bother to call. bye. =/ Alex. Have Hit Me: Take A Punch..

Holy shit?! [23 Aug 2003|05:48pm] Fuck.. I haven't written in a fucking long ass time. I had so much shit going on .. finally winding down. Been talking to a lot new people. Fun, eh? Shit kinda sucks lately .. Both good and bad. I decided I don't need a fucking girl. They all suck. Lie to me and shit .. And for now on, they can fucking come to me if they are interested in me .. I am tired of this bullshit chasing crap. ITS CRAP! School starts in like .. less than 2 weeks. FUCKER! I dun want summer to end .. No more staying up till like .. 6am. FUCKER IM GOING TO BE WAKING UP AT THAT TIME! .. grrr. Tonight sucks. I saw kristin at the mall .. She doesn't like me anymore. -.- Whatever. I don't even want anyone but her. so fuck it. if i cant have her I am giving up for a while on girls .. at least i am not going out of my way to meet them. If I do, great, if not .. Oh well. Roar, alright well I am on tele with Kristin .. So I'll write more later. :) Yours Truly, `TheWaxTadpole` Have Hit Me: Take A Punch..

Problems .. [10 Aug 2003|06:39pm] What else, right? Well I haven't written in a long while.. I Just tend not to be in the mood. But I dunno, I feel like it now. Lately everything has been horrible. I mean like .. Just bad. Didn't see Kristin for two weeks, so I wanted to see her pretty bad. So she says .. "Oh I can't I just want to hang out with Colleen." -- Then I find out she goes to Club Culture with like 5 people. I mean what the fucking hell? She gave all these reasons .. But I dunno. Then later that night .. I heard she was lying about -everything- for the last year. I was so crushed and hurt .. I seriously just wanted to slit mysef. I told her I never wanted to talk to her again.. Everything. After about a day .. I calmed down. I seriously do need her as a friend. But now everything is fucked up. I still don't know how the hell we are going to work out this whole 'liking eachother without doing anything about it'. I mean .. I can't keep her as just a friend, and I can't have her as more than a friend. I pretty much am moved on from that though. I realize nothing will ever come of us. Oh well. Roar, I am not in the mood to type anymore. I'll finish later. Yours Truly, `TheWaxTadpole` Have Hit Me: 8 thoughts - Take A Punch..

Whoah? [07 Aug 2003|03:49am] As bored as I am .. I am actually happy. Things aren't going as bad as they could be I guess. I am not as worried about girls I dun think anymore. I dun need it I guess. It'd be nice to have one to mess around with .. Cuz that is always fun. I guess I dun need a fucking huge relationship. Been thinking about it .. And lately I have been having -fun- for the first time in a year. Man .. I dunno why but i am in a fucking great mood. I worked on the websites tonight. Tomorrow they should be up: http://www.FirstToLast.com/ -- The Band. http://www.SylkAnatomy.com/ -- The Personal One. Haha, yes I loved Kim's screen name. They should be kick ass, so if you have any pics or anything to send me .. Just lemme know. :) I really wanna hang out with someone. -Please- call me. I'll fucking do anything. Well, I am out guys. Peace in. :) Yours Truly, `TheWaxTadpole` Have Hit Me: Take A Punch..

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